My life now

Well its been a while since I posted and a lot has happened. I can't say much other than I lost my job of almost 10 yrs. As much as it saddens me and upsets me I am so much better off out of there. I struggled a lot the last couple of years with my health and didn't have enough days for appointments and most of the time I had to take the days unpaid. It is definitely hard keeping a job when you suffer chronic pain on a daily basis, being on meds that have so many side effects and the mental toll it plays on you on top of all the stress of a daily basis.

I sometimes wonder what my future is going to be like but I know that I need less stress and I do not want to be in management. My ideal job is helping others but I need to find a way to do that and make an income.

I was a single mother for 7 yrs and I worked so hard even though I was so sick and I feel at this time I am meant to spent this time with my daughter for all the years I missed because of work and being sick. I am not even sure how I made it this far in my life with multiple diseases but I did and I have faith that there is something so much better out there for me where I can make a difference.

So today I am finally free and learning to cope. I was recently diagnosed with Complex PTSD which makes so much sense and I am working on breaking free from all the trauma and abuse in my life. I am here because someone feels that I have a lot to offer in this world and I truly believe that. So for now I will continue to help people that are struggling with suicidal thoughts from chronic illness, support them the best I can until I can figure out what I am going to do with my life.

Thank you for all the support from the social media community you have all played a big part of my life and the support I have needed for a very long time.