Come out come out where ever you are..............

It has been some time since I have posted. It has been a rough, rough, rough 5 months since my Endo surgery + hysterectomy. I battled all the emotions I never thought even existed. I was so low I could barely even function properly on a day to day basis. 

The first two weeks after surgery I had really bad hot and cold flashes. One of the hot flashes I had I thought I was having a stroke or an aneurysm it was so scary.  It just consumed me and it started from the waist up out of no where. I was not even hot, It was almost like something was taking over my body like some huge rush of something. It went all the way up to my head and again I still didn't feel hot I felt panicked, and I felt like my face was on fire but I wasn't feeling like it was a hot flash. I know that I am not explaining it quite well but it was something I can't explain. 

I had two cold flashes and I thank God they never happened again because I was not expecting those nor did I hear of them prior to all the research I had done. I would awake as if I was lying outside in the middle of winter with no clothes on. Nothing could get me warm. I tried multiple duvets with a heating blanket and it didn't even touch it. I felt this lasted longer than the hot flashes did. 

Here I am 5 months post op and I have about 5 hot flashes a day and I am so lucky because they really aren't as bad as they were or how bad they are for others. I am having overall major body pain and I have yet to start an HRT because I wanted to wait at least 6 months but I am even now thinking I want to hold off and not do it. I am still researching on what I want to do. 

At the beginning of August I awoke to my arms numb and swollen with severe pain. It has been two months and it took a good month for the swelling and numbness to go away and now I am left with tingling and numbness and awaiting a CT scan. I am not sure why this is happening. I thought possibly it could have been a side effect of surgery due to positioning when they are operating on you as I have heard of many people getting frozen shoulder after surgery so I still do even know what is going on. 

I should say that for me and my life, if its not one thing its another. 

Well I am all caught up for now... Oh ya, one more thing... I started a new job two weeks ago :)