The time has come for me to bid farewell to the Endo community. I never thought that I would even get to this point but I have. There are mixed emotions but mostly relief. I am tired of advocating, tired of supporting other, tired of talking about a disease that helped destroy almost my entire life.
I have met some really amazing Endosisters online which I still plan to keep in touch with but will no longer be on social media relating to Endo.
I have hit a point in my life that Endo is now at the bottom of the chain when it comes to quality of life and I have other things I need to deal with. I have been suffering greatly for the last 3 yrs mentally, physically and emotionally and I can no longer be there for others or to educate them or to even talk about Endo.
I hope that I left a mark in this Endo world and that I helped some people along their journey's as that that was the only thing that I wanted to accomplish. "That no women was to ever fight this disease alone"
My last post on my Faces of Endo Facebook page is below. I thought I would post it because I will be closing it down within 6 months. This blog I just might leave open. I worked really hard on it and I hope that others can benefit from what I have been through.
FACEBOOK FINAL POST
It is with deep regret that I must tell you all that I will no longer be advocating for endometriosis. It has been a long battle for me starting at the age of 13 and continuously advocating night and day for the last 5 yrs.
I suffer from complex PTSD and Major Depression with anxiety, TMJ and Fibromyalgia as well and things have taken a turn for the worse and I am just not getting any better.
I have taken all my energy to help and educate women all over social media worldwide so that the next generation does not suffer the way we have.
It is long overdue that I take care of myself and pass the torch to my fellow endosisters to continue to raise awareness even when it seems there is no change happening. Keep fighting!
I thank each and every one of you that have helped me throughout the years to make these projects happen and the friendships that I have made.
I am forever indebted to the women that heard my silence and knew I was not okay, messaging me daily/weekly to check in on me constantly to see if they could help me through the dark times. I owe you so much because of you I never took my life when all I wanted to do was leave this earth. Your friendships will never be forgotten.
I will eventually close this page in the next 6 months as well as my Instagram account, twitter and pinterest.
The next steps for me is dealing with the CPTSD that has taken over my entire life and I hope you all respect my decision.